La Di Da

There is no way out of this house unless a miracle happens & I somehow I find a full time job in the next few weeks. I can't deal with the constant "Right time" theory my mom has. Everything comes at its own time, there's a right time for everything. To me my thing is that the right time is when the individual is ready & maybe that's just my own way of thinking or my "pre-parent" thinking but that's what I believe. I've said it before & I'll say it again, I don't wanna leave here on bad terms. I don't wish to have to go the run away route just to be on my own. I want to leave here when I have a job & am able to move into an actual apartment but just because I want all that doesn't mean I'm not willing to tough it out if I have to. Also, yes I'm aware that vamps situation sucks but I don't want to constantly be reminded that the situation only got worse. I mean he's abusive, temperamental, & so many other things. Including the fact that he's going on a year with this same unfixed situation, but I care for him & I love him & I'm hoping that together we can somehow make things work. Nothing is perfect. What we have right now isn't even near it, but for some reason I still think it's worth a try.