Around 4PM

Feeling my baby kick should always be a happy thing but sometimes it makes me sort of sad. I just wish he could be there, I just wish he could pay for something. I wish he had something to more to offer. I always thought I'd be fine if it ever came down to me having to do everything but now that it's in there I would feel so much better if he could just contribute something. Anything. This baby's gonna be here soon & the closer it gets the more I don't see me having any assistance from vamps. I mean it use to me be a fantasy now it just seems nonexistent. I see me being really frustrated & a lot of fights, cause if he does get out & things are worse than before then IDK what's gonna happen. I know that after the baby & my birthday I'm going to be a little too busy to put up with the stuff I do now. The things going through my head right now are doing nothing but upsetting me so I'm just gonna stop.