Another Day of Wondering

All morning I've been thinking about the way things are, the way they should be & the way i NEED them to be. Vamps keep saying not to worry about his situation & I've been trying not to but how the hell can I not. As long as we're together in some type of form, his problems cause me problems & then in return cause me stress. He's in jail now, so where do we go from when he gets out. I finally called the cops on him, & I may even press charges but then what. I know I need to take my life in the right direction. Sometimes I feel like he should fix his life & I should fix mine & then we should just meet up again & try to make this work. I would have loved it if I could have just moved in with him, or at least a place to go & hang out with him. If he could have just fixed his situation or made up a good situation for us & the munchkin but since he didn't, since he still hasn't. IDK what to do. I need to find a way to be able to support myself & my munchkin so that after it's born I can buy all the stuff it needs.