I Need A Solution

I haven't had sex in a week && of course by now I miss it but for some reason I just can't bring myself to do it. Maybe because me && vamps had two big fights, one on Friday && the other on Tuesday. They were really bad, && really close together. I think I'm having a hard time jumping into anything sexual since we're like in limbo in terms of what we are. Cause like I'll get into the mood for it but can't bring myself to go all the way. I guess in a way I feel like I shouldn't be doing much of anything with someone who hurt me the way he did. IDK what it is...maybe I'm trying to really focus on building a foundation that can actually last && afraid that if I go straight to sex then we'll end up in the same predicament as always. The one where we go from whatever to acting like we're a couple without actually being a couple, && since we really broke up this time I don't wanna fall back into that pattern. I don't wanna mess up this whole process of making things better. Blah I need to find some type of middle ground or something && soon.