Good Day

Ok so pretty much all of this weekend & up until yesterday I had been feeling utterly hopeless in our situation. I wanted space, I felt like I needed to get away. I felt like things would never get better & that I would always just be unhappy, but for the first time in a while I feel genuinely at ease. It's weird. Like I'm not saying that I don't still see the things we need to work on or that I'm not upset about the scrapes on my face but for some reason I got this feeling that I can't explain. It's like I don't feel completely hopeless at this moment. Like I had practically a great day today. Vamps & I finally got our official ultrasound where we got to actually see the baby not just look to check for an heartbeat. It was so cute he was in there twisting & turning & flipping around. It even looked like he waved at one point=]. Then after that we went to babiesrus & did our registry. Even though we had tiny disagreements and sad & depression moments, walking around and scanning all that stuff made it feel really family like. I was happy that I was able to share both of those experiences with vamps and at one point in there all I saw was us setting up all the crap we needed in a room in our place. His dreams being a reality and everything being semi fine. Thinking about it now it makes me nervous for some reason....I think maybe because I don't wanna get my hopes up but basically yesterday we kinda just agreed that we're going to take it one day at time. At the same time we're focusing on the big goal & I'm going to try and help him in some way shape in form. I sorta just rambled off away from the topic but um yea lol uh the ultrasound was just the best...we got four pictures & it's funny cause like if you look at them in order he's like doing a flip...which is even funnier cause we both was like the whole time it looked like he was trying to do a back flip lol he was just moving around so much. Even though today was suppose to be my space day, I ended up hanging out with vamps until about 8 something and then finally going home to do my assignment [the same one I practically fought for yesterday and still didn't finish] && studying for my test, which I'll probably end up doing in the morning since I doubt I'll have time to tonight. Then later I'm going to go check out our registry online [since vamps got a little gun happy] & see what we have, what we need, & what else I can add. Eh just for the fun of it. =].