Everything Seems A Little Clearer

I keep replaying everything that happen yesterday from the minute I woke up to the minute I got on the train at Brighton Beach.I keep looking at all the things that were different about yesterday, and all the ways our fights could've been avoided. I keep thinking if I had done this or hadn't gotten made at that, if he hadn't said this or went && did that then maybe yesterday could've moved along smoothly. That's my reasoning at the moment but I know while yesterday could've been fine the overall outcome of yesterday would have still happened. It just would have been on a different day, at a different time, in a different place, because of a different fight. He broke my chains, all three of them. My gold one, the dogtag I gave him, && even the cross he gave me that I actually sat there and fixed the first time he broke it && what makes that one worse it that some random dude walking down the street picked it up && took it. Sucks to know that I'll never see it or wear it again cause I actually really liked it. && I like the memory of the day I got it, there was nothing special about the day but still it was something about it that I just didn't want to forget but now the memory of how I got it will always be accompanied by the memory of how I lost it. Yesterday was definitely one of those days that usually I'd be wishing to erase but I guess I finally realized that every time I or we "erased" an incident or acted like what happen wasn't that big of deal, it wasn't fixing anything. We were just prolonging the inevitable. It's possible that we're just to different to be compatible or maybe, as crazy as it sounds, we could actually be right for each other. But that could also mean we only make sense together when we're friends. Before this happened yesterday we had been trying to work on the friendship we once had && I think the time apart will even give us a better shot at that. Whether we plan on working as friends or working on the relationship we once had or just working together as civilized parents, the time will in my opinion help. It'll give us both a chance to sit back and think about what we really want, && what we really deem possible. Like really sit back && think about everything, from a personal point of view, to a combined point of view, && even the other persons point of view. Don't get me wrong I'm still upset && it still hurts when I think about everything that happened but I guess that's what brought about this semi clearer mind. I'm sick of being hurt && I'm tired of crying all the time over stuff that could've been prevented. So I'm going to take my own advice for once && separate myself from the thing that's causing me pain.