Bitter Fucking Sweet

Right now as I sit here really about to cry I just feel like the end of my so called happy life is near. Today one of the biggest coincidences ever happen. Today vamps got money from his "boss" && found out that he was going to be getting his laptop tomorrow. So we went to the Nintendo store && he took me to the movies. During the movie I found out that my Grandmas house was broken into && guess what got taken?? Yep her laptop (same exact one that vamps is pose to be getting) money && other things. By the end of the day I was beginning to think this was no coincidence. I just felt like he knew to much, that it just fit together to damn well. Fucked up right. That I would think my boyfriend would steal from my family. So I shook the thoughts outta my mind && let it go until we was on the train && he gave me a hard time when I tried to look into his bag && I saw a wire from a laptop. I started crying knowing I was going to have to break up with him but still I tried to let it go but then when I couldn't hold it in any longer I told him what I was thinking for the second time, he mentioned something to me about not being able to get into my grams house because he has no key so when I got home I checked && the key is gone =[ I swear it's just not fucking fair. If he really did do this to me then I I don't know why && actually really do think I love him. && if it's for real then IDK what the hell I'm supposed to do. This can't be for real. Please don't let this be for real. I don't wanna lose vampy. I don't wanna lose everything that I feel I've gained in the last few months but if I can't trust what my boyfriend tells me && if my gut is telling me that things are only going to get worse maybe we should just take a break. I've been stable for so long with him tho, vampys been soo good to me I just don't understand why. I can't understand why.