Tears Mark the End

So today wasn't too bad of a day. I chilled with vampy from about 12 until a few minutes ago. We was watching Naruto && playing games && what not but even with a day filled with laughs it ended in tears. I got iinto a mini fight with vamps but then to make matters worse my mom started talking about the same stuff...second guessing my relationship with my boyfriend. Making me want to disappear. Idk it just kinda hurt that something that makes me so happy she was saying was all a fake. To me, as dumb as I may sound writing this, even if it is all wrong right now it's sorta right. He makes me happy, sure the situation isn't perfect && I feel bad not getting into this more, like having him call to check up on things more often but he's trying. It's just that I feel like if I push him on it, it'll mess up our fun. Hate to be a kill joy. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm actually getting a headache because of this, a stress headache at that.