Ugh

So tonight vampy, which is what i call my b.f, was teaching me something and I couldn't do it. Well I could but just not as fast as I was suppose to =[. I'm sitting here [not at this moment ofcourse] tryna get my hands to move faster so I won't be a complete failure. && yes if I don't get it right I'm lame cause apparently there are munckins that can get this right but not me. I've got work to do && I'm not just talking about the martial arts situation, I mean in all aspects of my life. Even though I said I was happy being 3.1 I want an effin upgrade. I wanna be XP or at least Windows 2000 dammit. And thats just my brain. There are other parts of my life that need to be upgraded so I'm gonna get some things together. Starting this summer so when I look at myself I'm proud or at least I feel accomplished with what's going on around me and with me.