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It's so depressing thinking about the fact that my life is somewhat over before it even started. Vamps & I never got to "go out" like a couple. Like the way I wanted and we never will. It's fcked up that sometimes thinking about whats about to happen makes me depressed cause it's not their fault. I mean I could still have that life but that would make me a bad parent and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't want to. I'm sure we could still have a nice, fun life. Granted we even work out. It's funny cause I was the first one always saying that "young" pregnancies aren't the end of the world. And I know it's not but IDK. It's just so much to deal with right now, and it's only gonna get worse.