This morning or afternoon rather i felt as if my life is crashing around me again...i feel like theres no point in takin another step forward since it hurts each time. I miss the days when i felt like things were getting better and i was making progress but now im starting to think that i will forever be stuck in the pain of my past. Reminded each time of the mistakes ive made and stupid things ive done. Everyday i wish I could go back and change things... fix things or just skip things all together. I dont even know what to feel anymore. Should i be disappointed since i never get what i want or mad that i seem to dig myself a deeper hole everytime i try to fix myself. I'm missin my numbness. But ever since you came back into my life i cant seem to get numb anymore. You bring out so much of my past since you was such a big part of it. I miss it sometimes and i kno u do to. But i'm starting to get attached to you and that i jus cant do. If i fall for you what will i be left with. Nothing right? So whats best for me to do? Walk away ofcourse and cut all ties. Simply put but i cant. We've both tried and you always come back. I had finally got used to not talkin to you and i had finally got on with my life and was happy with how things were goin. But now its like we never took a break or anything. Youre like my best friend but you cant play with me like this, you cant give me a inch and then pull it away. I like us as friends but i know it wont stay that way. But if it changes can i really keep my cool. Probably not.