Bedding

Finally found a crib set that I thought was perfect. I was happy with it all week until today when I read a review that said that colors are faded looking. That really bothers me. So now I guess I have one more thing to add to my list of things I'm going to be wandering around trying to find.

Stroller Dilema

I can't find a freaking stroller I like. This would be soo much easier if I knew what I was having. I love this one stroller but it seems to bright to be used past the summer and yes I know that sounds rediculous but yea that's how I feel about the stroller. Love it but too seasonal =/. Maybe I'll change my mind and get it. I found this really nice one thats in like navy blue or something but I can't freakin find it online so I'm going to try and find it in stores. I still have a few more weeks before I have to have one and I don't think my mom was planning on getting it until April anyway so I have time.
[*Unless the baby comes early, but we're hoping that doesn't happen.*]

Damn This

I can't find my damn journal. I don't know where I put it ugh. I want that book. Blah anyways it's Friday night and I'm home alone watching a rerun of For the Love of Ray J. Doesn't that sound fun. I have no one to talk to, nothing to do, and no where to go. My life just feels so empty right now and I hate it. The night is the worse, it's like once the sun goes down I get really depressed and lonely. I don't know what to do. I wish it would get hot out already, atleast then I could wander around or something. I am going to arrange my drawers this weekend and do my hair next week and then I am going to start going somewhere. I hope.

Renovation Nation

So as planned we have began the makeover of my room and so far it's been a mix of accomplishment and set backs. We manage to accomplish a room layout after three moves of the furniture in my room. Two of which I did pretty much on my own and let me tell you it left my thighs feeling like they were in vice grip lol but it only lasted for about a day. My mom then got me a new tv, one that she wasn't 100 percent sastisfied with since she expected it to be bigger. We ordered it so we only had the picture to go by but it wasn't what either one of us expected to see really. It's grown on me though and if she keeps it then I'm thinking of mounting it. My old tv died the same day the new one came. I think I killed it though. I think all the moving I did with it had something to do with it. I was actually sorta sad that it wouldn't come back on especially when my mom said it was holding on just long enough for me until the new one came. It's still sitting here in my room, two days later, stil won't come on. I don't know what they plan to do with it since my dad said not to throw it out so for now that's where it stays.

She also got me a bookshelf, which I found out is way too small for the amount of books I have. I didn't realize the amount of books I had until I had to pack them all up, and this isn't even all of them. I have more at my grandmas house and some in the hallway closet I think. I really would like to get those from over there as well as the books from my childhood before she gives them away or something. But since I can't get them home at the moment I just have to hope she doesn't do anything crazy. **Step away from the books and nobody gets hurt** lol. But yea back to the bookshelf, um I can't put the damn thing together. I only tried once but I have assembled plenty of items in my days so I know it's not me. So now I have a bookcase that's not only too small [if I ever get it together] but also too expensive to ship back so if I don't then I'm stuck with a pile of wood, that would make a lovely baby closet type thing btw, that I can't use. *sigh*

Other than that is the issue of me painting my room. Up until a day ago I thought I was going to be painting my room this week. Now I may not be painting until after my munchkin arrives. Which really sucks because I really would have love to have the room coordinated by then but idk.It's either someone else does it or I wait but I really wanted to do it myself =[ I'm still undecided on the final decision when it comes to that. I'm also still a little undecided on what I want my room to look like when it finished. All I know is the bedding I want [or as of now think I want lol] for my munchkin.

Regardless of if I paint I think the final details will make the room look better. Like the shelves and the curtains and bedding. Putting everythin away so it doesn't look like I just moved in or something. I room feels so hollow like this, I miss all the clutter. Only now I'm going to try to obtain organized clutter. How? I don't know just yet but I will. Hopefully. Eventually. Anyways that's all for now I think. Um this weekend I may end up in homedepot again or I may end up with a painted room or neither. Who knows. I just want this room to be complete.

Too Many Blogs

...for once saw what my mom was saying about rushing through life. I don’t think it was until recently that I finally understood that. To just enjoy being young since eventually the numbers start to go up and before you know it you actually have mandatory responsibilties...
I have a blog type thingee on 43things.com and one of my goals was to move out and apparantly I wrote a post about roommates. I wrote a update, part of which is posted above and IDK reading it just made me see that I was trying to make myself happy or something by filling my life with things that I thought would make it perfect. I guess I still am. But writing that I realized I have other things to worry about, other things I'm gonna need so really when you think about it moving isn't really a logical short term goal for me right now. IDK maybe 6months to a year. I mean don't get me wrong I would LOVE to have it all but I think it's time to sit back a realize it just might not be possible.

Blah

It sucks that when I'm giving people updates on my life and sharing my "great" news, I can't be fully happy. Why? Because the subject of daddy dearest always comes up. It's like I know some people look at the situation and my age and come to a negative conclusion but what bothers me is when they ask about the father. Inside it pisses me off that I'm in this situation with someone who can't even manage to call even when they're locked behind bars. Like I know I broke up with him so it may seem selfish or something to think he should but for someone saying they wanna make things work then they should be putting there best foot forward. I feel like it's all a game to him. He's not taking this serious and that's sorta how I got to my final decision. Ofcourse it wasn't just based on a few missed phone calls. It's more than that. I just wish the situation was different but if he doesn't want to help himself then there's only so much that I can do.

Post 200 =]

Whoo!

Ok so ii only made this post to share my quiz results.

I took the 43 Things Personality Quiz and found out :: I'm a

Reinventing Self-Improving Builder.

That is all. =]