Its dark n cold where i walk alone. A hollow plain where no one cares. Push to the edge and hangin by a thread. I give in to the pain that eats at me. No longer a prisoner to what im not. No longer burnin slowly to one day die. Slow. Internal. Painful. Demise.
-Infamous-
(ME)

ok so im back on my gotta move thing and now more than ever. I woke up this morning and realized i have ABSOLUTELY nothing to stick around for. I feel like im trapped or maybe i just want to leave so bad that its overpowering my sense of reality. The part that tells me whats obtainable and whats not. Moving out by myself at 16 is hardly obtainable and i wont be leaving for college until next year. I've got a year with these people. The ones that claim to understand but really don't. Im nothing like them and for some reason they cant seem to take that as it is and leave it. They wanna change me and fix me. They're trying to bring me to what they are. But its useless, cus i see what they are and i hate it. each n everyone of them. I hate their lives and what they stand for. They're weak and content with the mediocrity that is their lives. Wanting to go farther but stuck in time letting others pull them back. I understand their reasons for doing so...so dont get me wrong. I just can't see myself doing this. I need to be free. Alone in my world. Alone in the world. I really see no difference.