Best Summer Ever

I started this on May 30th but kinda forgot about it so ill finish it today....um yea, best summer ever lets see, so far it is not the best summer ever but i got the best boyfriend ever[as of now anyway]...I did something on Friday that i NEVER thought i could do, I spent the night out and it was the greatest. Im goiin for a replay this Friday but i dont know if im goiing to be able to pull it off twice in a row so i dont know, maybe im pushing my luck. I dont know what else to write so ill be back later.

Its dark n cold where i walk alone. A hollow plain where no one cares. Push to the edge and hangin by a thread. I give in to the pain that eats at me. No longer a prisoner to what im not. No longer burnin slowly to one day die. Slow. Internal. Painful. Demise.
-Infamous-
(ME)

ok so im back on my gotta move thing and now more than ever. I woke up this morning and realized i have ABSOLUTELY nothing to stick around for. I feel like im trapped or maybe i just want to leave so bad that its overpowering my sense of reality. The part that tells me whats obtainable and whats not. Moving out by myself at 16 is hardly obtainable and i wont be leaving for college until next year. I've got a year with these people. The ones that claim to understand but really don't. Im nothing like them and for some reason they cant seem to take that as it is and leave it. They wanna change me and fix me. They're trying to bring me to what they are. But its useless, cus i see what they are and i hate it. each n everyone of them. I hate their lives and what they stand for. They're weak and content with the mediocrity that is their lives. Wanting to go farther but stuck in time letting others pull them back. I understand their reasons for doing so...so dont get me wrong. I just can't see myself doing this. I need to be free. Alone in my world. Alone in the world. I really see no difference.

Enjoy me while you can

Cause come Saturday I am either gonna be EXTREMELY depressed or stressed.

Black is SO yesterday

lol just playin....but i am sick of the color...my birthday is in about 4weeks and i think im going to dye my hair the weekend before it comes. I've been wanting to this since last year sometime but couldn't pick a color. Last night after months of searching I think Ive come close to what i want.

I want somthing just like that. I love that color...its THE perfect mix between brown n red. Now all I gotta do is find that it.

Age Issues

So i wanted to take the next five weeks and dedicate them to getting in shape for the summer. At first i was just going to change my eating but then i decided i wanted to put some more into it so i was gonna go runnin. I told my mom this n me n my sister had had a previous plan to go running but it would b when she got out a school. problem is i get out of school at five n i dont get home till like seven which isnt to late but by then im tired n its kind of cold but i guess if i wanna run i have no choice. I was gonna go running in the morning before i left for school but my mom all of sudden decides that its way to early n its 2 dark out to go running at 5 somethin n the mornin. yea so its dark out n whatever but thats not my fault. I didnt ask for the sun to come up after six. I have to be out this door n on my way to school by 650 the latest so i guess i would have to be back in my house by 600 meaning i could leave n go running at 530. 530...thats not that bad. I think the sun comes up around that time. right? no? maybe, iono. My point in this rant is that whenever i get in the mood to take a few steps forward theres a age barrier that pushes me three steps back