Somethings Are Better Left Unsaid

Ok so in less than an hour I managed to cause a even bigger rip in my family. What use to be temporary solitude and a few arguments between members has now somehow managed to turn into my sister leaving and me getting my own room. I should be happy since its what i always wanted but Im not. I hate that it had to happen this way and i feel like an ungrateful bitch. All I wanted was to get a pair of headphones so i could listen to music and somehow that led to me n my sister gettin into an argument about how she uses my bed as storage which led to me tellin my mom that its not fair im the only one who has to be put out or inconvienced. I had been alternating between sharing a room with my mom and sharing a room with my sister for forever and now its so solem here. I feel horrible, but idk.Don't get me wrong I'm happy I have a home and im happy every ones alive but what i said earlier i only said because of emotions, SUre it was the truth but still...I feel like everything is falling apart and its ALL my fault.

Friday Night

Ok so its like 8 oclock and instead of beiin at the movies with my baby (like im pose 2 b) im here at home on this computer all by my lonesome. Well bubbas here but he dont count. I feel like a damn spintster or spencer or whatever it is u call those lonely old people who sit at home with nothiin 2 do n nowwhere to freakkin go. UGH. n to top it off im eatiin noodles. of all things noddles thats like the icing on the cake to me. speaking of cake i wiish i had one of those betty crocker microwavable cake thingees...they would b so good rite now. =/ anyways i dont even kno y beiin home rite now is botheriin me so much. but it is. I dont kno what to do with myself 4 some reason im bounciin off the damn walls. IF only. If only wat? See i dont even kno what i want i just kno that i want somethiin n i want that somethin now!