Damn

I came so freakiin close to breakin up with my boyfriend today that i could hear the words rolling off my tongue. I DIDNT want to but i thought that if I did it before anybody feelings got hurt it'd be better. I took a moment to calm myself and think about why i was about to do what i thought i was about to do. I found out that my only reason was cause i was being spoiled n childish. Being extremely annoyed with dropping people before giving them a chance, i decided to talk it out with him. HA you heard that. I actually yelled at someone about what was bothering me at the EXACT moment it was bugging me. *big smiles*

Uh Yea

I want to say i had a somewhat emotional breakdown last night but i dont even know if thats what you would call that thingy i had...I somehow manage to blurt out once again all the things i had kept burried over the past couple of months when i started building my wall. My wall seperates me from my emotions i guess you could say last night a big ass earthquake shook it loose. Back to square one. Or rather brick one...get it haha =/ anyway...my mom has granted me a night away to clear my head and do what it is i have to do so tonight i am suppose 2 be spending my night with J, even though J cant be found at the moment, Im sure they wouldn't let me down. Uh voices sayiin that im not all that sure that im actually getting a little shifty that i cant reach him...im not pose 2 b there till 10 but still...still. My head hurts and i think im getting sick *thumbs up* whoo hoo!! yea! [um 4 u slow ones im beiin sarcastic- just in case you haven't caught on]...being sick is not what i need right now, im tired enough as it is without addin a freakiin virus to the mix. ....